saying goodbye's the hardest part.... 

i feel like im falling apart without him. it sounds so stupid, but i really miss him. he was my best friend, and he was the one who was always there and always understood. now my "friends" just think i'm being stupid when i say i miss him...i'm happy for him, i really am. im glad he chose to go. i just am havin a hard time without him. i feel like im not the same person. i act so different around people now. im not myself anymore. im afraid. of what? i have no idea. i just know im afraid. i know he loves me and he always will but its just so hard without him....

ugh. my boy is gone. he's at the MTC right now and he'll be there until the end of July. it sucks without him, but i know i'll be okay. for all of you who don't think i'll be able to wait for him, screw you. i'm going to be faithful to him no matter what.

i don't update much now because i'm getting more and more addicted to myspace...yes, i know...its pathetic but i love it.

toodles

I leave for Illinois in two days! I'm excited. I'll be gone for like 4 days...I come home on Saturday, which just so happens to be PROM! I fly home the day of Prom. Crazy! My flight comes in at 12:30, then I rush home, get my hair done by 3 and then I'm off to the dance. The theme this year is A Knight for a Princess...I think it's way cute. My boy is buying me a tiara so I'll be a princess. Yay!  I'm so excited.

On the other hand....bad news is my boy leaves for Thailand pretty soon. 2 years is a very very long time. April 26th is the last time I'll see him....I'm sad but happy at the same time. Ah well...it's all for the best.  I'll be here waiting for him to get back.....hope time flys!